Ok. For months I’ve been trying to figure out what the heck #AroundIrelandOnAPushie was. All I knew I wanted to do it; I didn’t know why I wanted to do it… I just knew that I had to do it. I’ve sat down on a number of occasions writing a bunch of stuff down just trying to figure it out – The words never worked for me. I was trying to let people know what it was… Nothing I wrote made any sense to me. When I told my friends, they thought it was awesome, but to me, it just didn’t feel right because I couldn’t put it into words. I honestly didn’t know. Until now…
Let me give you the back story: A friend of mine told me his incredible tale about how he bicycled from Sydney to Melbourne for a wedding. He showed me the pictures, the route, and he told me these incredible stories from the adventure. I sat there with a shocked look on my face, shaking my head thinking, “You’re nuts!” I couldn’t believe the epicness of this journey – it was raw and it was something I had been craving for some time. Even thinking about it now, I still think his adventure is the coolest, craziest travel idea I have ever heard!
I took his story and thought about it – a lot. I was doing a lot of reflecting all because of this amazing story. It seriously affected me. I thought about where I was going, what I was doing and where I wanted to be. I had a pretty rough trot the past year and was living in survival mode. I went to work, the gym, ate dinner and slept. Work. Gym. Dinner. Sleep. Repeat. I was just going though the motions. I wasn’t sad about it; I was doing a lot of fun things, too. I ran my first half-marathon, went on epic weekend adventures, canyoning, bush walks, did social media stuff for the ESA and NASA, but something was missing. I couldn’t put my finger on it.
But, then I realised that #AroundIrelandOnAPushie gave me exactly what I needed. I am not a bicyclist by any means…. so I was basically starting from scratch. It was an investment, physically, mentally and financially and I wasn’t sure why I was investing in it. Being able to look back the past few months and reflect, this was a prescription for my life. I could not stop thinking about bicycling Ireland. I was thinking about it daily and what I didn’t realise was this little idea was helping me to heal and grow. Here I was planning an epic adventure with no real reason with absolutely no idea why I was doing it – but it felt right. So, this is who I was before planning #AroundIrelandOnAPushie:
- I kept everything to myself. I had been surrounded by the wrong people, so I basically stopped trusting everyone. It’s sad but true… I had be on high alert for so many years, that I stopped reaching out and sharing.
- I was just going though the motions of life. I’m a TV Producer by trade, so its very easy for me to just switch off and push though.
- I felt nothing. For the longest time, I wasn’t feeling emotions. I was just existing and living.
#AroundIrelandOnAPushie forced me into trusting people again – it made me reach out and ask for help. It made me realise that people believed in me and it made me surround myself with the people that actually cared about me. It gave me something to live for – a goal. I am now about to do something that is much bigger than me – the biggest challenge of my life, in fact. And this is the coolest scariest, most amazing thing I have ever done.
It hasn’t been easy. Some days, I’m going “Why the heck am I doing this? Am I nuts?” And other days, I just CAN’T WAIT to get to Ireland and start to bicycle! I’ve had crazy emotional days and I’ve reached out to people and you know what, everything is ok! This is what I’ve been missing all these years.
Now, this is ONLY the beginning and I’m sure how I feel about #AroundIrelandOnAPushie will change. But this is where I am right now and it works for me.
This little adventure started out very different. But I’m really glad the direction it is taking. (and i’m not really sure how I’m gonna fit 3 months of my life in 2×17 litre panniers. I’m finding that the scariest part of the entire adventure.)
I depart Sydney on Monday, September 13. If you would like to be a part of this epic adventure, please follow one or all of these social media handles! I’ll be doing shout outs along the way to see who want to bicycle a leg or two or catch up over a beer! See you on the road!
A girl gone walkabout in the great big world!